“Growing up, we aim for confidence.
Growing older, we aim for comfortability with and within ourselves.”- Vanae
I just got off the phone with Sarita, my spiritual coaching program teacher, and we did our check-in regarding my development plan. There’s a scary yet wonderful air around the dynamic of our conversations. I feel completely reset with each touch into this deep introspection. It’s like taking a LONG DEEP BREATH and feeling rested. planted. still.
A quarter into our conversation, as I was answering her questions, she pointed out how she noticed that my voice lowered- the sound of more maturity. For me, it was nice to be mellow and not have to be uppity or entertaining all the time. It dawned on me on how in life…we grow up and work towards confidence and how we present ourselves, but as we get older, the next stage is to be comfortable just being.
As you can tell, I love coaching towards worth, self awareness, and confidence. Working your way from the inside – out and to how to present yourself externally.
As I grow through life (especially through my spiritual coaching program), I realize that after our ‘confidence’ stage, the next pivotal level of self-awareness is to unveil and settle back to who we are. To gain comfortablility in our own skin and face the lies and fears. Letting walls down for people to see us as whole and as imperfect as we are. To be completely raw, nude, vulnerable and authentic.
Unveiling yourself can be a scary and exhausting process, but we gain so much in return. I know I am. To have no masks. No roles you have to play. You show up as who you are…and you are present.
V’stars, what have you noticed as you’re getting comfortable within yourself?
its hard to unveil the person behind the mask..for me,its hard for me to show how vulnerable and weak i am at times… but i believe that i can just keep it to myself and wait for the ‘volcano’ to errupts…
I choose to unveil myself only to the people i care and trust..the ones that is close to me
hey aidil,
unveiling to friends and people you trust is where it’s at.
i know, i’m benefiting from doing that with my close ones as well.
vanae
I always have to be enthusiastic and high energy as the president of the Asian American Student Union at my college. It can be a bit straining at times and i’m completely 100% with you V, when you were talking about how nice it is to just be mellow. It’s so much so that when I am mellow people ask me if i’m feeling alright and i have to tell them that I’m not always high energy and that I like to just go with the flow sometimes too. Cheers to you V, and being mellow
I also need to be more mellow with my dating habits but thats another story! hope all’s well~
hey v’star tom,
i feel you. when i’m not smiling or being lower-energy than usual, everyone thinks something is wrong. but forgetting what people think or say…it’s a nice relief to feel into whatever mood we are, huh?
vanae
wow one of your best ones ever!!! I am thinking about it…
aww, thanks v’star martin.
hope you’re keeping warm in soCal.
Hey Vanae,
Check the poem out of unveiling, i hope you like it !
The Unveiling
Elite durations knocked
upon majestic thresholds of serene divinity;
offering subtle clues within the moon lit universe…
Scoping within the vast spheres of an inquisition;
thoughts roved under stellated celestial galaxies:
Are we just withering stars upon gazing moons?
Do heavenly bodies peer
into the descrying window panes
of seclusions revelation?
Or are we walking within the magnanimity
of privileged excellence?
…Knowing there is loyal sublimity
fortressing wisdom’s virtues…
An abandon surrenders into the faithful heart
like shooting stars…quickening into the stellar presence of the sky…
Evoking a calm essence within the soul of love;
unyielding echoes dance to lunar songs;
like kismets of perfection…
Within the devotional oath of honor;
Integrity stands with stately pride;
Inside this vastly expanding universe
as a peerage of solar significance
into the veranda of ennoblements…
The fealty terrace of hope…like the rising empyrean gifts of divinities
opens before the exalting privileges of enlightened deliverance…
Releasing transient doorways pledged by fate
to the worthy vestibules of love’s attenuate embrace;
dignity stands before devout honesty like a cosmic storm…
Releasing astral perceptions of existence…
Flourishing within the celestial commitments
of emotional presence
entering into the elevations of allurements…an imperial soul;
…awakening rises to the sentience of emotional unisons;
offering equanimity’s tranquil bounties
…revealing declarations of eminent trust…
Aspiring within the foundational embrace of peace
is this quietude of voluminous expression;
these silent admissions unveiling the wondrous luminaries
of your beautiful heart…