one of my quality readers wrote a beautiful response to “renewal”:

i can’t tell you how happy it made me to read that piece you wrote yesterday, v-girl. The beginnings of true wisdom,yo.

see now the larger forces in our world are going to conspire to bring you true love. it’s only by letting go and nurturing our real needs that we find what we seek.

so none of this so far probably makes sense to you. here’s how i see it working: by taking care of yourself, restoring your own balance, when an opportunity to open your heart to another comes, you will be on balance, less dizzy, less vulnerable, feeling less of a need to seize and cling onto whatever emotional driftwood the currents of life bring by . . . you’ll be swimming on your own. like a beautiful sea otter, playing and lithe and powerful . . . you’ll find another playmate and make beautiful noise.